From USA Today best-selling author Sky Corgan comes the riveting prequel to the Flesh series, told from Lucian Reddick's point of view.
Lucian Reddick has just lost his family in a tragic shooting. The pain he feels inside is almost too immense to bear, and he only knows of one way to drown it out. Sex is quickly becoming not enough though. He needs something more. Something darker.
Pain.
It’s all I’ve felt for the longest time. You can’t make it go away. All you can do is mask it—run from it until your body and mind learn how to cope.
That’s been my life since she died. Since they died. My loving wife and amazing son. I deserve this. I deserve to feel pain. Only one thing numbs it, and it’s not this.
I wrap my fingers around the solid wood sides of the crudely built Saint Andrew’s cross that Mistress Grace has me secured to. The rope twisted around my wrists is tied to each metal O-ring on the X. My cock and balls rest precariously on the steel center section that holds the cross together. It’s an odd shape for a Saint Andrew’s cross, with the smaller part of the X on the bottom instead of it being even on both sides. I can’t tell if it’s a design flaw or if this particular Saint Andrew’s cross was purposely built so that a man’s genitals could be easily accessible no matter which way he’s facing.
I lean forward a little, testing the metal beam that holds the cross in place. It’s not bolted to the floor, so if I put too much weight on it, I know it will slide. That would displease Mistress, not that I give a crap. Pleasing her hasn’t been at the forefront of my mind, as much as she insists that it should be.
This was never what I wanted. I was talked into it, convinced that I just need to let go of control. Letting go of control is what got my family killed. I should have put my foot down when Leigh insisted that Isaac go to Catholic school. Or maybe I should have let her have her way… I don’t even know anymore. It was a stupid thing for us to argue over. Stupid that she got so mad that she took Isaac and left. Even stupider that they died because of it.
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Italian
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Already translated.
Translated by Elena Ludovica Cirillo
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Author review: Well done. |
